And I’m back!
I wanted to talk about this cycle I found myself in and get some things off of my chest.
I decided a long time ago that I wanted to try dating again. Even if my mind wasn’t in this whole “idea” of it “being a date” outside of the standard definition.
At the time, I found myself surrounded by female colleagues that I know from one person or another. I would always see them whenever I made the decision by myself to go out to enjoy live music. But it was the ONLY TIME that I would see these women.
The thought had come to me that even if these people said that I was their friend, then why aren’t they acting like it? Male and female.
I have always gotten along better with women than men. It is just the way I’ve always been.
I asked myself over and over again: If we’re friends, then why aren’t we acting like it?
I set out so long ago to try to meet with one person for dinner. Even though she said “yes” over a year ago. Then she said “yes” again, but nothing ever came of it. Only that she would not be able to go out until a certain date had come. That certain date has come and been gone for over a month now!
When I apologized for the second time of bombing, her response was “I just figured you forgot or that something came up.” And at first it seemed as if she was being very forgiving of the repeated mistake. But after a while I started to think “I don’t think it matters too much to her because if it did, wouldn’t she have prodded me for some kind of answer as to why nothing has happened?”
I moved on to the next person in those circles. I said “We hardly see each other because we do not go to the same shows. How about getting tacos sometime?”. To which I received another “yes” but again…. nothing further.
To be fair, “contestant #2” (as it were) as far as I can tell is in a relationship. And I am not out to destroy that.
And I have most recently been told by yet TWO MORE women “We should hang out at a show together!” Over and over again.
My problems are not being turned down. My problem is the follow through. The planning, the scheduling. None of that happens!
My word of warning to anyone who is reading this, is to ALWAYS have a plan to follow through and make sure that it gets planned and actually put down on the calendar.
And even though I may be choosing the WRONG women to “date” I should still be following through with the original plans of hanging out.
I am hoping that in the very near future, I will change all of this. I just hope that if you are reading this and you are stuck as I am, that you take these words to heart and don’t just ask someone out… actually TAKE them out. No matter what it is that you are doing. JUST DO IT.